For the first time ever, I participated in the Annual Cancer Awareness Walk with The Cancer Society of Belmopan this morning. I can't explain the emotions swirling in my head leading up to the event and even now that it's be over for 2 hours.
I'll never be able to say "who" I walked for, although certainly Judah is at the top of my list. How can I walk for just 1 when I've know and fought beside so many young warriors? The tears that streamed down my face during the first 10 minutes of the walk were shed publicly. No sunglasses to shelter behind, no tissue to gently blot them away, there was no hiding them. Cancer is the same way, when it's there it's there. It makes you see different, it makes you walk different and it changes you. I am a different mom than I was 4 years ago.
Cancer hit my son and I don't believe the waves of emotions will ever be calm again, I've seen too much of cancers destruction, I've witnessed too much of the pain and I've stood beside too many who have given their all to fight back. Warriors, survivors, moms and dads, family, friends, doctors, nurses, researchers, funders, supporters and activists... You have all fought with everything in you. I stand in awe of your strength today, in awe of your drive to "find a cure".
Please don't give up, PLEASE.
It may have only been 5 miles that I walked today BUT
I walked with you
I walked for you
and I walked beside you.
I will continue to do so until my final breath because I now believe that awareness CAN lead to a cure.
All my love fellow warriors, all my love...,
Sara
